lots of things all at once!
there's a massive weight off my shoulders from knowing our living costs are covered for the next while -l ong enough to definitely finish this, which will bring in more, so we're going to be okay. that's huge!
i feel.. weird.. i don't know not quite jealousy but, you know, we see people getting together enormous budgets for some games that often to my mind aren't really worth it! and i've just done the biggest effort of marketing that i've ever done, for what might be the best game so far and.. the number isn't as big as those other people? and then i'm ashamed of feeling that because, this is what i needed for this game, so it's what i asked for, and people have come together and given me all that i asked for and that's amazing! it's just, when you've been in precarious situations there's a lot of complicated feelings to unpack around money. but mostly i am simply grateful!
i'm very proud of myself! for putting so much into this, for the work i've done to build my strength back up to where i'm consistently working again, making something really worth making. and especially for how much i've grown to be able to seriously and confidently market my work, not being a shy little kiwi hiding away from attention and hoping the games will sell themselves.
and overall, quite tired.
lots of things all at once! there's a massive weight off my shoulders from knowing our living costs are covered for the next while -l ong enough to definitely finish this, which will bring in more, so we're going to be okay. that's huge! i feel.. weird.. i don't know not quite jealousy but, you know, we see people getting together enormous budgets for some games that often to my mind aren't really worth it! and i've just done the biggest effort of marketing that i've ever done, for what might be the best game so far and.. the number isn't as big as those other people? and then i'm ashamed of feeling that because, this is what i needed for this game, so it's what i asked for, and people have come together and given me all that i asked for and that's amazing! it's just, when you've been in precarious situations there's a lot of complicated feelings to unpack around money. but mostly i am simply grateful! i'm very proud of myself! for putting so much into this, for the work i've done to build my strength back up to where i'm consistently working again, making something really worth making. and especially for how much i've grown to be able to seriously and confidently market my work, not being a shy little kiwi hiding away from attention and hoping the games will sell themselves. and overall, quite tired.